A feast for the eyes!

My boyfriend recently told me we rushed into things too fast. We were together for 20 months and had sex after the 1st month. I wanted to wait and so did he but one thing led to another. Like after we did it everything was fine, until a couple months later when things started to change. He said that he didn't want to get hurt by me like all his other girlfriends. I told him I was different but he obviously didn't believe me. I asked him what he wanted for his birthday and he told me that he didn't want anything, I told him to stop being silly and just let me get him something Cuz I was his girlfriend after all.We have been together on and off (I say on and off but the longest off was 2weeks). He was my first everythin Kiss love the works! He breaks up with me but then said he wanted to fix us but has gone back to ignoring me.I know nothing is perfect and there will be ups and downs and hard times to get through and those are the things that only make two people stronger...but I am just confused because I think i am having doubts about my bf of almost 2 years...

I remember there was a time where i was crazy about him beyond belief....like i thought he was THE one..but then he started to treat me kinda disrespectful and i tried to ignore all that and still believe that he was the one for me...

We would go through a lot of stuff and slowly by slowly i would notice that there are things that i DONT like about him and they started to bother me..

At one point I even had a gut instinct that he was cheating on me bc he was being so distant...

Im really confused on what to do because I dont think he and I will work out but i still feel like i love him regardless of the things he has done...like one being for example...On the weekend of last year...he said he was tired but he would rather clean his car than spend time with me and my family.

What should i do???